as the day goes on...

now.. i have come to realise that my blog is written with complete and utter shit.. but thats how i roll and i aint going to change that.. so in the true style of missy and talking shit.. im just going to continue that.. so here i go..

my life today consisted in lack of sleep.. finally took my ass to bed at around 2:30am.. and then woke up at some where around 8.. i honestly cant remember.. all i know is that it was too early and that i should still be in bed.. yes even now i think i should still be in bed..

so to continue.. i cant get the bluetooth adapter which i just bought to enable my home pc to be bluetooth compatable.. aparently again, my mind thought it was just to early in the morning to actually figure stuff out.. so the adapter is still plugged into the computer.. well it will be until mum needs to use the computer and realises that i unplugged her usb drive.. bad missy..

once i gave up on that.. i realised that i was running late my a docs appointment.. so i dragged my ass into my room and changed and was on my way.. im really starting not to like docs as i am sick of having tests done.. like i didnt have enough blood taken during my pregnancy.. but apparently not.. hmm.. the life of missy.. how so not exciting..

so here i am now sitting at my sisters house.. with the high tech babysitter LG.. LG now babysitts people of all ages.. ranging from birth to senior citizens..

so thats been my day so far.. yay for me..

oh.. i also stole some of my sisters chocolate.. and am tempted to steal some of chloe's chips too.. yummy corn chips.. oh wait where are they.. im off to find the corn chips..

its all fun and games until someone gets hurt..

Well where do i start here.. I like someone.. but.. isnt that how they always start.. anyways.. im really not getting the whole dating thing these days.. the fact that you see each other.. your intimate with each other.. but your not actually dating.. its getting rather confusing.. whats the point in doing those things with a person if you dont really like them that way.. why waste my time in playing games with me, if all your going to do is keep me hanging around until you find someone better.. someone you want to be with.. that is not what im about.. Since when did things become so difficult in the dating world?? since when was it normal to be seeing someone, but not actually dating.. why is it that relationships now come at a price.. Since when did the whole dating thing change.. Dont get me wrong i understand the whole working class thing, when you work to much and want to be intimate but "dont have enough time to date".. but in all fairness.. if you found enough time to hang out with me, talk and laugh with me, go places with me.. then im sorry.. your just full of shit.. because you do have enough time to "DATE".. why is it so hard these days to actually have an emotional relationship and not just a physical one?? tell me that please.. and why is it i always seem to find the guys that only want a physical relationship.. do i have "Use Me" printed across me somewhere that i cant see.. because every guy that i have met in the past 2-3 years have all said the whole "i dont want to date right now".. Or maybe its just me.. maybe i dont come across as the dating type.. in that case then, tell me what the dating type is so i can figure out what im doing wrong.. because in all honesty.. this is just bullshit..

hey every one.. this is my gorgeous son challum gray.. he has been a delight and my everything since he came into this world.. although the labor wasnt my ideal labor.. he still came out healthy and well not so gorgeous at first.. lol... but here he is now.. my lil man..

being a mum..

Well if it wasnt enough to be scared most of the way through the pregnancy.. the realisation that i was going to be a mum still hadnt yet kicked in until after baby challum was born.. He came into this world on 31 march 2009.. and he was 6 pounds 3 ounces.. i am happy to say that he is now 10 weeks old.. although currently sick.. but other then that he is a healthy and happy baby who is very spoilt.. although his father is not in the picture, i believe that he will still be a normal well balanced kid, who will probably suffer from only child syndrome... lol.. Myself am still suffering from the effects of labour and birth.. i currently have an inflamed lower back, my hips are twisted and even my shoulders are out of place.. ha ha ha.. but all in due time they will be back to normal with a bit of tweaking from my chiro.. On the home front.. i am living with mum again/still.. am dreaming of moving back to townsville.. currently work for myself.. oh the joys of life.. am happy to have a sister like mine who will graciously take challum (aka cj, bubs, bubba) for me to give me a rest.. i have recently just come back from townsville from a 2 week holiday/introducing bubs to the family.. is probably why im missing it so much.. that and the warm weather.. im not much of a winter person.. cold and wet just doesnt float my boat.. since being back here i have met some great people and cherish there friendship.. not to mention catching up with old friends from the past.. I still how ever suffer from depression.. but am happy to say that i am back on my anti-depressents which work wonders on the best of days.. these days i am dreaming about finding a nice, sincere guy and settling down.. but like i said.. i dream.. ha ha ha..

since being a mum though, i have learnt that the love you have for your child is unconditional.. there is definately no other feeling like it.. he makes me smile constantly and lights up my face when he smiles at me. I hope that i can provide him with his needs and wants through out his life..